[Personal Development Series] How To Get Clarity Even When You’re Scared of Making The Wrong Decision Leave a comment

This is Part 4 of my 5-Part podcast series for perfectionist entrepreneurs. It’s all about why personal development is the secret to building your business and my simple personal development process that works for perfectionists who are building businesses.

I wouldn’t have a successful business if I hadn’t figured out how to make great business decisions even when I was scared of getting it wrong. I used to umm and ahh, procrasti-research, procrasti-learn and second guess myself. I wanted to get every decision right because I didn’t want to embarrass myself, I didn’t want to waste precious time and money and I didn’t want to publicly put myself out there if I was only going to change my mind one week later.

In today’s episode, I’m sharing the simple personal development work that my clients and I have done to make great business decisions even when you’re scared you’ll get it wrong. And the answer isn’t just to make an ‘imperfect’ decision. That doesn’t work for perfectionists! So instead, I’m sharing a simple and practical approach that does – as well as some personal stories that I know you’ll be able to relate to.

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Introduction
Hi and welcome to another episode of The Perfectionism Project. A podcast full of perfectionism advice for entrepreneurs. My name is Sam Laura Brown, I help entrepreneurs release their perfectionism handbrake, so they can get out of their own way and build a fulfilling and profitable business. I’m the founder of the Perfectionists Getting Shit Done group coaching program, which is otherwise known as PGSD. And for even more perfectionism advice to help you with your business, you can follow me on Instagram @perfectionismproject.

Sam Laura Brown
Okay, so this is part four of the personal development series for perfectionist entrepreneurs on how to grow your business through developing yourself and through shifting out of the perfectionist patterns that have been making you stifle your business growth and overthink and procrastinate and have a hard time making decisions, which we’re going to talk about today and burn yourself out and feel scared to feel seen, which we talked about in part two. And this episode is going to be really helpful, particularly for those of you who are always on the hunt for clarity. You just want nothing more than to feel clear.

And if that is you, first of all, know that in PGSD, that is one of the things we support you is feeling clear and knowing exactly what you’re doing, knowing when you’re going to do it, having a flexible plan that is realistic, but also will get you towards a goal you’ve never achieved before. Having you actually feel clear about where you’re going, what you’re up to, what your niche is, like all those different things. We really support you and perfectionist brain to be clear.

And in this episode, I want to talk about the personal development required to feel clear. This, I felt this topic, it feels a bit more nuanced, it feels a bit more advanced, but it really is such an intentional, essential topic to talk about for perfectionist entrepreneurs. I just don’t hear people talking about this.

And so I think it’s extra important to talk about because if you want to feel clear, but you never do, it’s because there’s some personal development required on your end. And in PGSD, we really meet you where you are and where your perfectionist brain is. And we support you.

We have a framework called momentum decisions. We provide a lot of coaching and support as well on the weekly calls and in Ask a Coach and in the PGSD forum on decisions because businesses are made up of decisions. And we’ve talked about decisions or we’ve talked about business and business being inherently risky.

Like if you’re really creating a business and creating something that’s never existed before, inherently there is risk in that. There is no guarantee. There is no certainty that if you put in the effort, it will definitely work.

And so there’s personal development required as a perfectionist to be able to be in that uncertainty and still show up and still go all in and give it a full effort. So there’s that. And really as well, just being a perfectionist entrepreneur and being in business, that business for everyone is made up of decisions.

It’s deciding so many things, both big and small. When you’re in business, you’re deciding what my business model is, what my niche is, or my market that I’m serving, what my product is, what my service is, what my pricing is, what my terms and conditions are, what my team is, what my marketing strategy is, what my sales activities are, what my timeframes are, what my standards are. There are so many decisions that go into business, so many.

And there are constantly changing circumstances. And when you’re in business, you’re interacting with real people, with real customers, with real people who are interested in what you do, with people who will come across what you do who aren’t interested but feel like leaving a comment. When you’re interacting with the real world by virtue of having a business, there are decisions that then come up to be made.

And there are decisions as well in terms of, I was doing something this way and do I need to keep doing it or do I need to change the decision? Do I troubleshoot it or do I do something completely differently? Do I keep going or do I give up? There are so many decisions in business. Decision-making is an absolutely essential skill. And I really want you, we talk about this a lot in PGSD, to think in skill sets, to think of decision-making as a skill and something that you can become skilled in rather than I’m good at decisions or I’m bad at decisions, like I’m indecisive.

You might have a self-image. We’ve talked about self-image in part three. You might currently have a self-image about being someone who’s indecisive or being someone with a really low risk tolerance or being someone who can’t handle making mistakes or being someone who wants to always get it right or being someone who is smart and therefore always gets it right.

If you believe smart people always get things right, that’s something worth looking at. That’s not going to be helpful to think that. But in a lot of perfections, we do think that.

We think if I’m smart, that means I get everything right all the time. I never make mistakes and I’m never wrong. And then we shame ourselves for being wrong and making mistakes when of course we would.

That’s part of being smart. It’s like trying things and showing up and doing things anyway. So when it comes to business, it’s really important to see there are so many decisions in business.

Decision making is a skill set to be developed to have a successful business. There’s no way around it. You can’t hire someone to make all those decisions and I’m just going to hire a team and hire someone else.

Even hiring a coach. We definitely support you with your decision making but we don’t make decisions for you. You have to.

There’s no way around it. If you want to be successful in business and stay successful in business and there’s going to be ups and downs along the way, if you want that for yourself and I’m assuming you do, then decision making is a skill you must develop. And one of the ways that perfectionism makes it hard to develop the skill of decision making is that it feels very vulnerable to feel clear to be decided.

We and I coach so many perfectionists on this inside PGSE and I’ve done a lot of my own self coaching and gotten coached on this as well because my perfectionist brain really wants to be confused, really wants to be told what to do but then also still be a bit confused about it so I can be busy learning instead of doing because doing is a vulnerable act. When you are doing something and not just like tinkering away or like chipping away at it but like if you decide something and you make a plan and then you do the work like you actually start, say it’s a project, you start the project, you keep going on the project, there’s going to be frustration that comes up, there’s going to be things that you didn’t want to come up that come up, it’s going to be vulnerable to like just keep going, it’s going to feel risky if you’re showing up, if you have a project around doing something new that you’ve never done before or just like showing up as yourself in the world or putting something out there that you’re not sure whether people will want and that’s always going to be the case.

Because again that’s the nature of business that there’s never 100% certainty circumstantially in entrepreneurship so to keep going through all of that even when your brain is like let’s do something else because it feels so much more comfortable as a perfectionist to be in the beginning of a task and in like the hope and the optimism and oftentimes as well perfectionists have a hard time starting things because we have so much pressure on like on ourselves and such high expectations that it feels so uncomfortable to witness yourself doing inadequate work or like work that you believe isn’t good.

So they can be for perfectionists a hard time starting things but oftentimes we still prefer like being in the start of something and like having a new idea than like continuing with it and then completing it and then publishing it like there’s all of that that is required to be able to to have a business and to build a business like that is required to have you taking a sufficient level of action to be able to achieve your goals or be fully attempting your goals and like going for it and to get then feedback on what is working and what isn’t working if you aren’t taking a sufficient amount of action this is why perfectionist getting shit done we really support you with taking action in a sustainable way.

Because if you aren’t able to take a sufficient level of action in a sustainable way over an extended period of time which is why it’s so important that it’s sustainable not to mention so you can have an actual real life and hobbies and other things like that as well you literally don’t have enough data and feedback from the real world that you can then use to build a successful business like you just aren’t like it’s like if you’re going to the gym and you really want to be fit and then you’re like doing one workout a week like you’re just not actually doing enough exercise to even get any kind of feedback about the quote like about what you’re doing and whether it’s helpful 100% anyone you would go to would be like first things first we need to increase the amount of exercise you’re doing like you’re just simply not doing enough exercise for us to even tell if this exercise is effective for you.

You’re doing it once a week that just like literally isn’t enough volume of exercise to be able to tell if it’s working because of course it wouldn’t be working if you’re doing just one workout per week—does that make sense? Like, that is what is going on with business you have to actually be able to take a sufficient amount of action to be able to even see if it’s if it’s working otherwise the advice from anyone is just like let’s just have you showing up more so that’s what we help with in PGSD because the perfectionism is stopping you from showing up and taking a sufficient level of action and doing that in a sustainable way and that is the essence of actually being able to build your business.

And so if we come back to really what this episode is about at its core is that the personal development required as a perfectionist entrepreneur is for you to feel safe in clarity and for you to not go as soon as you get clear back into confusion and back into deciding so some ways this can look is i’ve seen just so many examples i think such good ones of this is like deciding on your niche deciding on your product or service deciding on your pricing like there are certain decisions that especially for perfectionist brains and especially if you’re newer in business like you’re just in the process of going between zero and making a full-time income from your business that we can be in this mentality of like certain decisions are so important to get right.

And right there’s a lot of messaging in the entrepreneurial space of like you have to get these decisions right that is so unhelpful for perfectionists which is the majority of entrepreneurs are perfectionists and so if we constantly hear this messaging of like you have to nail your niche like you have to make sure you have the right products like you have to make sure and this kind of idea of like if you look at a tech startup for example they get product market fit not by like going and meditating about it but by like actually offering something and then getting real world feedback and like thru trial and error but somehow the messaging and, like, the idea has sort of become just just think about it and research about it and like i’ve worked with clients who like oh i’m like in this program that’s like go and do like this whole month deep dive of market research. And that advice just turns their perfectionism handbrake right on like okay this is such a big deal and you have to get this right and do like all this thinking up front it’s not to say that’s bad advice but if to do market research but if you’re a perfectionist any advice that makes something feel like a very big deal and very important and you have to get it exactly right that is going to turn your perfectionism handbrake on.

You’re going to be thinking those sorts right like i have to get this right i have to make sure i nail this i can’t do anything else until i figure this out exactly if you’re in that thinking you will feel pressure you will feel inadequate you might feel at times excited of like oh i think i’m getting it right i think i’m figuring it out like oh i just had this great idea and I think I’m getting it right like I know what that feeling for me.

I’ve had to discern over the years the difference between the feeling of being convicted and connected and committed like that’s what we want compared with this feeling of excitement that i get when i feel like i’m getting the a plus like when i feel like i’m nailing it like when i feel like i’m doing it right i get this like perfectionist excitement from like oh my god i feel like I’m getting it right but there’s so much marketing and messaging around like you have to get all these things right and then if you do you’ll be successful whereas we know and we’ve talked about that’s not how it works like that’s not how business works and that’s not how you want it to work either like if you’re the kind of person i help you want to be personally developing you want to be growing you want to be evolving you want to have problems to solve you want to have challenges to overcome like you want to do meaningful work and have like have a really meaningful engaging professional life.

And for me, I know that I’m not the kind of person who’s like oh my god i had the best day at my job today i did absolutely nothing and i just coasted no i’m the kind of person same with our pgsd is if a job isn’t challenging i will leave it so why are we trying to approach business like let’s not have it be challenging at all let’s just try and have i make the perfect decisions and everything works perfectly like that’s not even what you want if you’re the kind of person i help that’s not what you want you want there to be challenges and you want to feel instead of feeling inadequate in a challenge and therefore not wanting a challenge because it brings up inadequacy you want to feel capable you want to feel like you can rise to the occasion.

I love that feeling of feeling like there’s a challenge and i can rise to that occasion but there’s so much messaging about you need to nail your messaging like i know i’ve been in that thinking of like i need to get my messaging right and if i can just get my messaging right like just get the format of my launches right like just get the presentation right like just get the webinar right like all of these things if i can just get it right then it will finally work which gives me gives me such a feeling of like hope and relief and just like excitement again of like maybe I can figure it out but ultimately that disconnects me with the reality of what i want which is to be the person who can have a challenge and rise to it and like and be that and also the reality of entrepreneurship.

And so when it comes to decisions in your business especially if it’s a decision that is talked about in the industry or like in the entrepreneurial space is being a big deal and you should get it right it feels scary to be decided it feels scary to be clear on your niche it feels scary to be clear on your messaging it feels scary to be clear on what your product or service is it feels scary to be clear on what your pricing is it feels scary to feel clear about your business model or about your goals that you have like it feels scary to be clear because in the mind of a perfectionist if you’re clear and if you’re decided then you should be doing the thing you should be following through on it and we shame ourselves for being clear and not following through so we just deny ourselves and withhold ourselves the clarity.

So that we’re confused so that if we’re confused, then we can be busy either like figuring out the confusion or doing more research typically doing more learning like i just have to learn this or i just need to go and find a podcast episode on this one thing or find a youtube video on this one thing or ask chatGPT about this one thing, like if you’re spending all day talking to chatGPT to try and get clear this is definitely something that is going on for you that it feels scary to feel clear because you’re going to be abusive to yourself mentally if you’re clear and then you’re not following through because you should be like it becomes obvious if you’re decided about your niche for example and your marketing plan and all of that but then you’re not doing anything.

Our perfectionist brains then go into beating ourselves up but if we’re confused well of course we’re not marketing because we don’t know what we’re marketing so we have to figure that out so like being confused gives us this out that being clear and being decided doesn’t give us it puts us on the hook to be clear it puts us on the hook to be decided, it puts us on the hook to know what we’re doing.

And it’s so important to just recognize like oh my perfectionist brain wants me to be so confused because then i can use confusion as a reason for why i’m not achieving my goals as a reason for why i’m not making a full-time income for my business as a reason for why i’m not successful and then i get to spend all my time and this is part of perfectionism and like this productive procrastination that it doesn’t feel safe to rest that’s why we teach clean rest in PGSD so important but perfectionist we don’t feel safe to rest because if we’re not being productive, then we don’t feel lovable.

So like literally resting feels like it’s a threat to our own lovability of ourselves especially we don’t love ourselves when we’re resting and we don’t feel like we’ll be loved by others if we’re not doing everything we can to be productive and to be successful and so it’s really just understanding that when it comes to to actually allowing yourself to be clear that and this is i’ve coached so many people on on clarity and decision making even before i was helping entrepreneurs i was coaching perfectionists on how to figure out what to do with their life like that’s such a big decision right and the way that i approached it and i was able to help them was really by and this is what we teach you in PGSD how to feel safe with the clarity that usually is already right under your nose.

We want to be told like oh my god there’s this whole extensive process to go through and then you’ll be clear and actually the personal development required is instead of trying to like make clarity this super complicated thing it’s just to being able to be the person and there’s self-image adjustments that need to be made here as well to support this and we teach you how to do that in the program that to be able to be decided and there’s uncertainty with that like you could make the wrong decision you could be making a mistake like there’s all of that that our perfectionist brain is like let’s just be confused i have a great idea we want to be confused about the niche and the messaging and the business name and the podcast name and the price and the business model and anytime we’re clear and excited let’s just get confused again.

And go and consume something that gives us a new idea or like contradicts especially oh my god i have to talk about this if you are consuming contradictory advice this isn’t to say don’t be learning from different people but for example if you were in like two different programs teaching like conflicting methods and you don’t yet have the skill to do the method that just even one of those programs teachers so just an analogy for this i’ve talked about this before of like if you’re trying to like bake blueberry muffins and you haven’t made them before you haven’t like got a lot of skill and understanding than like how will the ingredients go together and all of that and you’ve got multiple different recipe books for blueberry muffins and you’re like okay i want to learn i want to you know be learning from everyone.

And so i’ve got all these different books uh recipe books with their blueberry muffin recipe and then i’m gonna just like try and read them all i’m gonna read them all understand them and then i’m gonna figure out how to make a blueberry muffin that is such an advanced skill that requires you to be able to do that you have to have a lot of experience with making blueberry muffins to just like understand fundamentally how that works and how like the flour reacts with the milk and the butter or whatever.

And so you aren’t going to be able to have the skill set to reconcile all of that and so it really is just this form of procrastinating because if you take that approach it’s so overwhelming there’s no way you’re making blueberry muffins no way there’s literally no way you do it if you are trying to get it right so you’re trying to learn all the things so you don’t miss anything and you’ve got all these recipe books and the equivalent of that is you’ve got all these different people you listen to maybe it’s podcasts and youtube and instagram or whatever your preferred platforms are tiktok i think it’s even harder in some ways on short form platforms we were just getting a little like 10 second snippet of advice here and then 20 seconds here and there and you can consume within a minute you could consume 10 different conflicting pieces of advice.

Or things that sound similar on the surface but underneath it are conflicting or like different approaches and they all work. They all work but you just have to pick one recipe and make it and see what happens. Like if I’m sure like if you wanted to do so and how to make blueberry muffins you’d say pick a recipe make it see how it turns out then maybe try the same recipe again.

Take on what you’ve learned like did you leave it too long in the oven take it take it out of the oven a bit sooner see what happens or maybe your blueberries I don’t know just like soaked through everything maybe you need to do something else with them before you put them in whatever it is but like you’d be like pick a recipe follow it troubleshoot it then maybe after you’ve made that recipe five times make a different recipe. How does that go how does that compare with the other recipe then do that one five times then maybe pick a different one or then put together what you’ve learned and like try and make another one so that is how we approach learning something new when it’s not all wrapped up in our identity and us trying to feel smart and feel good enough and be scared of mistakes and not missing things and like just being so scared to actually try but if for example with a blueberry muffin.

If you don’t have an identity of like I’m such a great cook and I’m so good at making blueberry muffins and like all of this you’d just be able to be like okay well of course I just like pick a recipe I’d make it I’d see what happens I’d make it again I’d see what happens I’d make it again I’d see what happens I’d make it again then I’d choose something different like that is the logical way to approach it but when we do it the emotional way we’re now perfectionist emotions like when we’re having these perfectionist thoughts of like I have to get this right and this has to be good and I can’t miss anything so I have to listen to everyone and I love listening to, like, different philosophies.

But when I’m listening to lots of different strategic how-to advice like the equivalent of a recipe book my perfectionist brain like just my desire for my perfectionist brain to be confused I’m just like trying a bit of this and a bit of that and like but not actually with an overall cohesive thing I’m trying to do so I feel very unclear and when I feel unclear I feel unsuccessful as well and really what works for me is I can learn about different philosophies but I need to just take one actual approach and apply that approach so for me I’ve always had my best results when I’m just following one person’s philosophy that I’m learning like one coach that I’m following or teacher that I’m following I’m just implementing what they learn and when I have issues instead of going to I’m going to learn something else from someone else I go back to okay what else do I need to learn from that person to get this working.

And that’s what we’ve had so many PGSDers have so much success from being like I’m going to be in PGSD and I’m going to use this philosophy in this way of thinking in this personal development work to grow my business and then when stuff’s coming up I’m going to go back to PGSD and get coaching and get support and reconnect with that and stay connected with that and get it working instead of oh that doesn’t work for me I need to try something different.

So in PGSD really attracting PGSDers and people who wanting to get real results and understand that that comes from being committed to a process including troubleshooting it for yourself instead of okay anytime I have anything go slightly wrong and this is perfectionist thinking anytime something goes slightly wrong it means that there’s a problem like this doesn’t work for me and I should try something different or learn from someone different so if you’re constantly consuming advice from so many different people it’s just because it’s scary to be clear.

It’s scary to have a clear process or philosophy that you’re following and actually follow it and troubleshoot it like it just brings up for you the risk that you might try your hardest and it won’t be good enough and so you go back into confusion to create comfort for yourself and to create a reason for yourself to be able to not have to do the scary thing of making the decisions and showing up and trying it and seeing what people think and seeing what you think and what you think might be uncomfortable what you think might be those perfectionist thoughts of this isn’t good enough and of course it’s going to be that.

Because when you are creating something and you have a perfectionist brain that is wired to see the imperfections and point them out to you and scream them at you about how substandard and inadequate it is the work that you’ve done whenever you create something especially as you’re in the process of doing the personal development work so like you can shift this we teach you this in PGSD but as you’re still in the process of learning how to shift how you relate to yourself and how you treat yourself that when you create something like for me I know even when I do a podcast episode that I think is great my brain is still like well that like you talked about that for too long that probably didn’t make like it just wants to point out all of the insufficiencies and ignores all of the sufficiency of it.

And so I’ve trained my brain and taught my brain over the years through this personal development work how to actually see sufficiency and to not overemphasize the imperfections and the insufficiency. So if you are procrastinating constantly just trying to and for you it might not feel like procrastinating for you it might feel like no I just want to make sure I don’t miss anything and I’m being really smart and responsible about this and I’m just like making sure I know what everyone says on the topic sure but that’s not going to have you be successful and I want you to be successful and so what you need to do is you can zoom out get a lay of the land and then say this is the approach I want to take and then you take that approach and you troubleshoot it and you stay committed to it.

And it will feel scary to do that part of the personal development work is the emotional capacity the ability to again be with uncertainty and to be with that like feeling of feeling exposed feeling vulnerable feeling inadequate as you’re in the process of learning new skills and becoming the kind of person who can achieve the goal you want to achieve like the growth goal I’ll talk about in the next episode but the growth goal is a goal designed to grow you have to grow in order to achieve your growth goal and so it’s very uncomfortable in the process of that your brain will want to to offer you this retreat into confusion and one of our PGSDers recently that I was coaching she came to the call and she’s like I really want coaching on I think it was her niche and so I coached her on that and she’d been confused about it for years within 15 minutes she was clear on that.

And I used the momentum decision process that we teach inside pgse to support her with that and coach her on that so we did that and then next the next week she came back again and she’s like okay now I need coaching on I think it was her pricing there was something else she was confused about we did coaching that and then she came back the next week it’s just like and now I need coaching on I can’t remember exactly what it was something else like okay the coaching you actually need is see how you keep going to confusion you just want to be so confused and then we coach on like here’s exactly what to do to feel safe in the clarity and like to just part of that is just understanding it is going to feel scary to be clear.

But if you are someone where you want nothing more if you’re constantly just searching for clarity and you can’t wait for the day that you’re clear on your niche you can’t wait for the day that the business name pops into your head you can’t wait for the day that you’re finally clear it’s really understanding that what what’s missing isn’t clarity what’s missing is the personal development work to allow yourself to be clear and stay clear because to your perfectionist brain that feels like a threat to your identity as a smart person as a responsible person as a successful person because as soon as you’re clear then you’re going to have to take action and that might result in failure that might result in you making a mistake that might result in you showing up in the world in a way that you’re not happy with.

So you want to just retreat to confusion retreat to learning retreat to researching and so this is one of the the key things that we support you in with PGSD and inside the program one of the key areas of personal development work that i had to do as a perfectionist entrepreneur because i wanted to be and at different times over the years like when my perfectionism handbreaks come on i’m like i need to get clear on my messaging i need to get clear on whatever and so many different things i need to be clearer on this and it’s always just oh i’m feeling unsafe being clear.

And something that i did in the last few days was so good i just want to paint the picture for you like what it can be like is i feel for me so clear on exactly what my goals are for the next three years for the next year exactly what my priorities are for this quarter exactly when i’m working and when i’m not working when i’m having time off this year where my days off are exactly what i’m working on when i’m working on it i have so much flexibility built into my plan but i planned out in my power planning and this is this is advanced.

So in PGSD we teach you how to power plan out your week or if that feels like too much how to power plan your day but for me now obviously i created that method and i also have been doing it now for about five years and so i’m very experienced with it and what i did was i power planned my whole quarter and i felt just from being so clear and it feels scary to be clear right because to actually know exactly what i’m working on and to then be working towards it because then i can make mistakes i could do it and it might not work like i’m an entrepreneur too i’m in the reality too there’s there’s no circumstantial certainty that like exactly what i do will work but i know i have the personal development tools and like what we’ve been talking about that we support you in pgsd to to do the belief work to get it working and to be able to create the action and the action fueled by helpful beliefs to be able to to have me achieve the goals i achieve or get as close to them as possible in a way that I love.

But I just felt so successful feeling so clear and decided on exactly what i want to do and i hadn’t even realized how me not being really clear on the zoom out high level what i’m doing like i hadn’t been clear on where i was fuzzy on that and i hadn’t been clear on on the impact like just i was still power planning every week but i just wasn’t as clear as i could be and i just have so much experience with like different levels of clarity and how it feels and just like i was like i just feel like i’m kind of wanting to be a bit confused about things because it feels scary like i have four kids i’m building my like i’m basically like reconnecting with my business in such a new way after having like the last five years has just been pregnancy giving birth pregnancy twin birth pregnancy giving birth like that has been the last few years and i’ve had a business that i’ve still been working on but my priority has been creating little humans and bringing them into the world.

And now i’m in this like period of really just being connected with my business again in just kind of like similar to how i was in the beginning when i was really building it from scratch and like just needing to really be connected again this was so excited to record this i’m so connected again with all the personal development required to be able to now as a mom of four achieve the big goals that i have for the business in the constrained time that i’m wanting to work which is three days a week or less plus having eight weeks off this year for having time to sit home when the kids are in daycare and also having family holidays that we have we’ll have at least three family holidays this so it’s just like it had felt scary to feel clear and then just allowing myself and supporting myself and doing the personal development and belief shifting required to allow myself to like get not make not just a plan and like here’s my goal and all of that but like actually get it to the point where it’s in my calendar in the order that it needs to happen with buffer time with flexibility with like actual life taken into account.

I feel so successful just from being clear and i know that for me when i’m in the thought of i know what i’m doing i’m in that sufficiency cycle of of me i make sufficient decisions i take sufficient action i get sufficient or even better or way better results and part of that circumstantially is that i have my growth goal I have my power planning I have my clean rest and so when I map that out for myself for the whole quarter and the next episode i’m going to talk about those three tools and how they really support this personal development work and bring it all together so you don’t have to be thinking like sam said to do this none of that it’s like when you’ve got your growth goal and your power planning and you’re practicing clean rest you will be doing the personal development required to become the person who can achieve your goals.

Especially as a perfectionist and so i just felt like just so being able to be clear i love feeling clear and my perfectionist brain wants me to feel confused and even though it’s painful to feel confused and to feel like you’re not making progress my perfectionist brain feels so safe in that because then i get to think well if i was clearer like if i if i was more organized or if whatever if i had more time then i’d be more successful but now i’m so clear first of all i’m on the hook in in a way that i wasn’t before and i love that as i said i’m the kind of person i love feeling challenged i love having an occasion to rise to i love self-awareness i love personal development.

So as much as my perfectionist brain doesn’t want me to be on the hook i want to be on the hook because i want to learn i want to grow i want to develop and those three tools are the tools that really support me in that and i really feel it when i’m not fully connected to them and to just be fully connected back into them and to be clear and to have to be able to have the thought i know what i’m doing like i know exactly what i’m working on today i know exactly why it matters and what it’s contributing to long term it’s not guaranteed to succeed but i’m clear on what i’m having to go at i’m clear on what being all in looks like i’m clear on what i’m trying to do.

I don’t need to be guaranteed that it will work but i’m clear on who i want to become i’m clear on what i want to create and i’m clear that i’m willing and able and going to keep doing the personal development required to get there and become that person. It might not happen in the exact time frame i hope it will i do hope it will and that sometimes happens but sometimes it doesn’t there was personal development required that isn’t anticipated but i am just from being willing to be in the in the discomfort of clarity to be in the the scaringness or the vulnerability of clarity and being willing to like i had to sit down and make some decisions that i had been avoiding and at different times like when i’ve got more uncertainty going into my personal life i’ve noticed like i want to to not be all in on the business because being all in requires the uncertainty i’m not wanting to have so much uncertainty.

And so I get increasing your capacity for uncertainty is such an important piece of it especially if you have uncertainty in your personal life especially if you have high levels of that i’ve had high levels of that in all sorts of different ways as well and our pgs is have life that is life in but you want to be able and there’s it’s not your like with getting clear it’s not like oh you’re just missing information that’s stopping you from being clear that is so rarely the case.

The case is you’re missing the emotional capability to be clear and that’s because of perfectionist thoughts you’re thinking and so we shift the perfectionist thoughts so you feel safe to feel clear and then you can go and get shit done and be all in your business and give it a real hot go. So i just wanted to share that in this episode because i don’t hear people talking about how as a perfectionist especially it feels scary to be clear even though you want nothing more than clarity that we deny ourselves and withhold that clarity from ourselves because it feels so scary to be clear.

It feels scary to be clear and you can do scary things you can do it you can have the support of PGSD and the the tools and the the way that we go to inside PGSD so that you can be clear and not then go back into confusion or back into second guessing or this person said this or i had this idea on the weekend and now i’m confused again it’s okay that you want to keep being confused but we don’t want to keep it being that way we need to get you out of the confusion and into clarity and that requires personal development work so that your perfectionist brain doesn’t keep pulling you back into confusion.

So that you can actually just let yourself be clear and you can update decisions always you can update decisions you can integrate what you learn in like it’s nothing set in stone and that’s part of the reason perfectionist we can have such a hard time with decisions we feel like every decision is set in stone it can’t be changed have to get it right first time around so stressful to think that way instead we just want to make sufficient decisions we call them momentum decisions to make momentum decisions to create momentum and that’s what we support you in PGSD that’s a big piece of the personal development work.

So i hope this episode has been helpful and just helped you understand if you keep being confused that lack of information isn’t the issue you don’t need to go in and ask chat to bt or write another outlet go and listen to a youtube video or whatever like you’re not missing information you’re missing the personal development work required as a perfectionist entrepreneur to feel safe to be clear so that said that’s episode four of the series in the next episode i’m going to be sharing with you about the growth goal power planning and clean rest and how those tools are the best supports for doing this personal development work as a perfectionist entrepreneur.

And also i’m going to be inviting you into Perfectionist Getting Shit Done. So the doors will be opening at 6:00 am Eastern Time on the 30th of January for one week only. So doors close 11:59 pm Eastern Time on the 6th of Feb, so you want to join the PGSD wait list if you’re not on it already samlaurabrown.com/pgsd. You want to get yourself ready to join us inside the program and in the next episode i will tell you more about again the growth goal power planning clean rest as well as the coaching and support that you get inside PGSD.

It’s a lifetime access program it’s such an incredible incredible value for money the investment that you make and what you get is just insane so i really want to tell you about it and invite you in and just have you know how to do this work so this isn’t just an intellectual thing or like now you’ve got this long list of all these different things you need to personally develop with like instead let’s just have you use the tools that make the personal development happen and support you with it and have it be inevitable. So i’ll talk to you about that in the next episode. I hope you’re enjoying the series and I hope you have a beautiful day.

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If you enjoyed this episode and you want me to be your coach and you want to be doing this work on a deep level with like-minded perfectionist entrepreneurs then I want to invite you to join us inside perfectionist getting shit done aka pgsd it’s my coaching program for perfectionist entrepreneurs and we do this personal development work that I have been talking about in this series. You get the tools the structure the support that gets your perfectionist brain working for you instead of against you; it is a lifetime access program it is absolutely incredible. So supportive—just everything you could want as a perfectionist entrepreneur so I want to invite you to join us inside the doors are opening on the 30th of January at 6 am Eastern time and close at 11:59 pm Eastern Time on Friday the 6th of February so to find out more today and join us inside the program go to samlaurabrown.com/pgsd.